…after things fall apart.

In one moment everything could be going well then in the next moment things could fall apart. It is in those moments every possible emotion began to invade your space. People begin to disappear, finances disappear, and you have no choice but to depend on others. At least this has been the case for me this past week. In these moments I have learned so much about others but most importantly I learned a lot about myself. Control is something I relied on but lately I have been losing all control voluntarily and involuntarily. What I mean is God is the only person I could lean on. And instead of leaning on those people I thought would be there for me and was not, God has honestly been using strangers to be a huge support to me. When things fall apart there will be tears, frustration, and even anger. You may find yourself crying at the doctors office and the nurse gives you a hug and says the much needed words you needed to hear. You may find yourself crying at work and you may find the support from a child in that moment through an inspiring handmade card saying just how important you are. You come home from an exhausting day at work and a neighbor in passing says, “You’re going to be okay.” Or when you are stuck on the side of the road and a stranger in a huge tracker stops and ask if you need any help. You may even hear a friend on the other end of the phone say, “I just sent you money go buy yourself some dinner.” Even in the midst of the storm, God calms your heart. Things begin to fall into place after falling apart. The reconnection to others during the disconnection of some has been an emotional roller coaster. I do believe that God has a plan in all of this. Nothing just happens. People will disappoint you, cars will break down, and money disappears but God remain the same always. Mountains are sometimes meant to be moved and other times they are meant for you to climb. As I climb this mountain it doesn’t get any easier but it is in the climb that my cries are louder and God draws near. It is in the climb when I learn who He is and who He’s always been. It is in the climb when I begin to realize just how small my obstacles are and how BIG God is. No matter your situation God is near. Be encouraged. You are loved my friend.